The moment of awakening itself – I will never forget that day, almost exactly 9 years ago. It was so important then, the new birth, the ultimate fulfillment I was searching for many years… I was in bliss for several months after, while being mentally aware that it was just a beginning. After a while, […]

I normally don’t like any “lists” or “stages” finding them too simplistic, but it is just a convenient way to give you some idea about what to expect if you practice meditation over a long time. There are a lot of different classifications in different traditions, this one is based on my personal experience but, […]

“Hail the trying times! The darkness sparkles, With the jewels Of future Insights…” How is real Insight happens? By real Insight I mean when you suddenly Understand something that seemed before so self-evident, something that ruled your way of thinking and your life. You understand it not just from the level of habitual circular thinking, […]

“In the deep stillness, I can hear the Silence, Busy creating, Booming harmony, The machinery of the Universe Working…” I have painted this little abstract while volunteering at Chenrezig Tibetan Buddhist center in Australia two months ago. First I tried to paint Buddha under the tree, then Buddha’s face, but it all felt fake… when […]

It’s not the meekness in his eyes, I know! He holds a sword or two or even more… To sever vanity and greed in single blow, And all the rest delusional galore! I am at the altar, kneeling in repentance, I take my oath, abandoning the pray…    And sword of truth so steady and […]

Immensity of Silence – not a tremble, No flutter, not a flicker in the Void… Came, flourished, sank – completely unremembered, Into the Silence – thoroughly destroyed! *** When I shared this little piece of poetry with my friends, it dropped like a stone, into complete silence (ha-ha!), which was a bit puzzling for me. […]

Experiencing your true nature – spiritual awakening – often compared to discovering a new dimension within yourself. It is purely experiential, and all descriptions belong to the dimension of conceptual. This is the main problem with all writings and teachings about enlightenment and awakening – pointing from the level of language (the conceptual) to something […]

What is our “true self” has to do with our gender identity? Absolutely nothing! No shame, no pride, no inferiority, no superiority. Just different bodies with different types of genitalia. And, yes, of course, the whole conceptual world of gender roles, history, judgements, and cultural perceptions, which is fun and colourful in itself, but when […]