The moment of awakening itself – I will never forget that day, almost exactly 9 years ago. It was so important then, the new birth, the ultimate fulfillment I was searching for many years… I was in bliss for several months after, while being mentally aware that it was just a beginning. After a while, […]

I normally don’t like any “lists” or “stages” finding them too simplistic, but it is just a convenient way to give you some idea about what to expect if you practice meditation over a long time. There are a lot of different classifications in different traditions, this one is based on my personal experience but, […]

Every breath, every step – into Nothing, Every word, every sigh flew and gone… Silence flooding, Eternity gushing, And my soul is submerged into dawn. *** (Russian version) Каждый вздох, каждый шаг – в Неизвестность, Каждый миг, каждый слог унося, Развергается, стелется Вечность И в молчании тонет душа. *Image is available as a poster and […]

When every moment’s gone, So thoroughly, forever, And death is not the Dark, It shines through everything. You taste the silent wine, From vast and starry cellar, That spilled through space and time, For us to drink and sing…  

Just as pure abstract art is not dogmatic, neither is it decorative.      Piet Mondrian Why abstract art? My family and some friends just can’t fathom and shrug their shoulders. “You actually can draw so well, why you keep painting these strange meaningless things?” I can’t blame them, most of my young life I hated abstract […]

“Hail the trying times! The darkness sparkles, With the jewels Of future Insights…” How is real Insight happens? By real Insight I mean when you suddenly Understand something that seemed before so self-evident, something that ruled your way of thinking and your life. You understand it not just from the level of habitual circular thinking, […]

“In the deep stillness, I can hear the Silence, Busy creating, Booming harmony, The machinery of the Universe Working…” I have painted this little abstract while volunteering at Chenrezig Tibetan Buddhist center in Australia two months ago. First I tried to paint Buddha under the tree, then Buddha’s face, but it all felt fake… when […]

It’s not the meekness in his eyes, I know! He holds a sword or two or even more… To sever vanity and greed in single blow, And all the rest delusional galore! I am at the altar, kneeling in repentance, I take my oath, abandoning the pray…    And sword of truth so steady and […]